it is just a crush, right?
maybe lots of people in the world are facing the same trouble as i am now
i used to believe it is not a worldly, earthly love, but in the end it turn out to be even not a sort of love at all but just a crush, right?
i really do not wanna slight my feeling towards u and our relationship
have u known it already? how will u look at me? am i a bad girl?
so at the mean time what can i do for my biology competition!!!!!
what a mess here!!!! how could i let this sort of thing mess up my life, i do not tend to lose my control of life
so what is your feeling to me? if it is not as i expected before so how to face it with enough braveness?
OK all of these are just okay.
I gotta to turn off the computer and cry it out and say goodbye to all those things

seventeen now
old enough to deal with it with good grace and confidence

wanna be special, afraid of being ignored
huh it might be the reason why i always stand out
but why do i live for? for ur love? for winning others' love? ridiculous
what if i do not mean sth at all to u? sad, sad, sad
sigh

I know why I wanna be there. cuz i am just not here. or just I am not sure i am here
learn to touch my feelings, reach into the heart the soul
finally there would be a ME a I a MINE
without apologies
cuz it is right to be here

I ve been seen
so that is exactly why i felt frigtened

there is a self waiting for me to join her

I am not afraid now
I know why u treat me so well
at least I have the ability to understand all of these ultimately
and I am capable to praise u, honor u, respect u
and u do need them
u do not need a ME, but u need my optimistic attitude towards u
so I will treat u well, I promised it to u
I will, I will
why u came along, why i came into your life?
just cuz we need each other. there is a new layer of life waiting for us
go on, keep faith, we can make it
life wont be destroyed but rebuilt

yoga yoga yoga
just try it!
next week.

learn keeping a contact with sb or sth without losing a self
被看见，才有爱
Now i do not desire ur feelings to me to prove that i am special anymore
cuz i know i am qualified to be special
and to be worst, provided i am not special, i still have the qualification to live here
but why?

passion self-independent
I gotta go my own way
it is not to be discussed
it is my desicion of my own

深情是存在的，而且深情不可亵渎

爱是深深的理解与接纳。

一加一等于二，你是你，我是我，但是我们在一起。
当我在关系中放下了所有的期待和设想，不再将你视为我的目标或实现目标的对象，我就可能在某一瞬间与全然的“你”相遇。
I honor the divinity that residents in my heart

another chance to understand a self and heal all the relationships