Today when I was on the metro, my memories of you came back all of a studden.They often come back to me, just not as strong.They were so provoking that it gave me such sorrowness of not seeing you after the summer two years ago.

I don't like being sad, sometines I just want you back even for a while.But a while of reunion may leave it sadder for an ensuing goodbye, wich surely I am so not ready for , and never will be.

However I am still so sure that we won't be togerther any further, and I may answer that with your lack of confidence and ambition, which as a girl I consider important for a proper man.Yet it bothers me a lot, finding it extremely hard to forget the memories with you.

Even very little trifles remind me of your existence. I can't really get you out of my head. Sometime I desperately need your love to bring me warmth and hope, and end up turning to the memories ,whose power of restoring my broken heart actually fades day by day.

It is never easy for me to recover from three failed loves, and you are the most memorable.Among all those boys who loved me, is loving me or I loved, you are so special, so different from all of them.

Look, however true my love prove, I may not anticipate any promising furture for our past emotions.Quite soon I will be heading for an European island far away, and I can eventually say that, hey, I am now studying further away from home than most of my peers including you.

But don't worry I will take care of myself and it is what I've been looking forward to for years. Don't stop me and I know you can't. Just wish me luck.

Now you see, I don't really have a clear attitude about our relationship. It is just me trying to express some of my true feelings, no matter you read it or not. How lost was I, can't stop asking that.

It doesn't matter if you've got a nice new girlfriend or start another love andventure, and I do want you to be happy, at least happier. So take care my love, and I will remember you well, and hope you too.

Best regards
Someone who fancied ya