昨晚最后一次表演,我和老板说我想唱首自己的歌,他没拒绝我。把用了三天时间紧急练的diamonds弹唱了一遍。没人听得懂我在唱什么,大家都在自顾自的喝酒互撩,他们需要的只是一个嘈杂的BGM而已。我想大学的唯一一份兼职用diamonds作为谢幕是很完美的。XH说这首歌总听的话会听出有些忧伤的错觉。我告诉他这不是错觉,因为歌曲本来就是作曲者在生活中没有得到而内心向往的内容。晚上回到酒店想找人分享一下喜悦,回头却发现
……I'll probably wake up a little sad, but then I'll get up and let go of it all instead. Because it's worth it to get in a mess over u two. So I'll just go on with my life and fixate on everything else. Have no reason to please u anymore. So I find ur way out of my sight. I know it's hard and tough to laugh. It's all mess up. I don't play this game anymore but I will miss u.