从汤上搬来一些文字:
You see the truth, but you live a lie
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Jesus Christ Superstar is by no means a feel-good musical (given the subject matter, that’d be hard to do without going full parody) but at least most of the characters (including Jesus himself) have a moment – however fleeting – where they’re genuinely happy.
Judas is not one of those characters.
From his very first entrance he’s anxious and disillusioned, worrying over Jesus and the direction things were moving. Throughout the entire show there is not a single moment where he’s relaxed, where his mind is at ease. He smirks frequently but he never smiles.
As the story progresses he becomes increasingly agitated. Though frustrated from the start, earlier on it’s mixed with a sense of arrogance. But after the crowd asks Jesus to die for them at the end of Hosanna, the arrogance gives way to distress and pain. Much as he appeared to revel in proving a point in Simon Zealotes, his expression during Poor Jerusalem, watching the other disciples disperse, is one of pure anguish – and not for himself.
Before he takes his own life he asks if Jesus loved or cared for him. The implication that he went to his death without being sure of this is possibly the most heartbreaking thought of all.